hope now

When my life is like a storm

Rising waters all I want is the shore

You say I'll be ok

Make it through the rain

You are my shelter my from the storm

Everything rides on hope now

Everything rides on faith somehow

When the world has broken me down

Your love sets me free

‘Hope Now’ by Addison Road

Well - I have finally "Let Go and Let God" as my doctor puts it.  I know that whatever happens this month with our fertility treatment is in His hands and He is the ultimate decider.  Although I have been more disappointed in the last 10 months than I can recall - the Hope that things will be easier and brighter soon keep me going.

I have started giving myself injections in my stomach every night - so incredibly painful!!  I'm also on another oral ovulation induction medication.  I have started going to the doctor every other day for a sonogram to see if I'm having any follicular growth.  Once one of them is big enough, I will do another trigger injection and we will schedule and IUI (In-Uterine Insemination) 36 hours later.  Never thought I would be going this far with medical intervention, but here were are - HOPING that it will work and my body will respond to this treatment and procedure.

Until then, I will just have HOPE NOW -

i'm waiting...

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am hopeful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting

I will serve You

While I'm waiting

I will worship

While I'm waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am peaceful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it's not easy

But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve you while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

‘While I’m Waiting’ - John Waller

Another month of waiting patiently for results has come to an end, yet again, with negative results. This is truly one of the most painful times in our lives, yet Chad and I are standing together to keep believing that God has bigger and better plans for us if having another child is not His will. We are still waiting patiently (at times) to see God's reveal to us - and we will continue to worship and serve Him in our time of struggle.

We have decided to try one more month - I know we keep saying that, but we are sure this time that we will try one more different treatment option and then take a break for a while.  It’s so emotional and I just hate the heartbreak at the end of every month. I will continue to keep you updated on our progress and hopefully next month's post will be a happier one!

Thank you for all your continued prayers! We appreciate those of you who have sent kind words of encouragement and prayer. They really do help us knowing that we are not alone!